That is when I decided- I don’t care what happens, I am not letting the woman of my life go away. At ANY cost. I sat down next to my wife with tears in my eyes. And I told her, “We are going to fight this out. We have to see him grow and walk into the sunset together”. She had never seen me cry, and she did now. Her eyes welled up, but she wouldn’t show it. She knew it would break me.
I was fighting tears, but couldn’t. Here was the love of my life, who had almost left me. Here was my son, who had almost NOT seen the most amazing woman of his life.
She is right now undergoing a long and painful treatment. I sit beside her for hours while she is getting her IVs done. I don’t flinch. It doesn’t seem to bore me. I hate it that in the past, I couldn’t sit for 10 minutes to talk to her. I don’t think I can ever make it up to her, but I’m trying to be a better husband. I am away from work, but it is not occupying my mind. I don’t bother to check my e-mails.
In the past, I wouldn’t miss replying to an e-mail. There are only two things that ring in my head right now- My wife and my kid. We haven’t had the chance in the past 2 weeks to celebrate our son’s arrival. But we know this too shall pass. And we will have a long and happy life together. This will only make us stronger. We are taking it slow and every day is a progress. But it’s a long haul.”
“I remember the lines of Robert Browning that I used to impress my wife 8 years back. “Grow old with me, the best is yet to be. The last of life, for which the first was made”. I didn’t understand the enormity of it then. It took a tragic moment for me realize what it meant to me now.”
