“Manas wasted no time and asked her to come over the following afternoon. She took a long pause soon after. She asked him to promise her that he will not judge her and things will remain only between them. Needless to mention, he agreed and then there was a big YES. He also knew he was old enough to get access to something like that easily. Soon enough, they were at his place, had lunch and within no time moved to his bedroom.

Roli had not recollected his face at all. She was right. She was very sure that she had not seen him ever before. Manas tried to make her comfortable, kissed her, and softly pampered her with a massage, till he felt he was too geared up to go all naked, while Roli remained clothed. They kissed, caressed each other but Roli just could not go any further.

“Why? What were you afraid of now?” I surprisingly asked Roli. I was glad she was just going with the flow while describing her story and saying it all. And then when I asked her that question, she confessed about something that gave me goosebumps.

She put her head down, closed her eyes, bit her lips softly and said, “Neha, while I was all there, on him, kissing him, got him all pumped about the action, I was still not ready to go all the way with him because I was yet to convince myself to find him attractive enough for me to get all excited.

I realized I was getting physical with him without being excited enough to do it all. Well, for the lack of a better expression or words, I just wanted to have a casual time with him. I was far more settled from the time I told him I wanted to do it. I had become calmer. I wasn’t afraid of anything though.

I know you are thinking why in the first place I encouraged him to move forward. Yes, I gave in to my mind, it was my fault to get him all hopeful about everything and then not give him anything. I could not melt in his arms and I was doing a favor, to both of us I guess. I was honestly only acting not enjoying.

Was I wrong Neha? I am feeling guilty suddenly. In a way, I also feel cheap and more like a call girl. Perhaps they are the only ones who could afford to be this casual about making out with a stranger and get paid for it too.”