“Hearts are wild creatures; that’s why our ribs are cages.”
Perhaps the wildest creatures of them all. My wild heart fell for you while your wild heart never fell for anyone. I had always looked up to my relationship with you as something to survive on. You crawled into my world and then slowly you started seizing my world. Now that things are different, I am finally able to see what we were. I have obtained a sense of clarity, something that I had failed to reach out to when I was with you.
What you have done to me, I hope women like me should never go through. You stole from me, you left me stranded and you kicked me hard. I looked at you as a friend and an exceptional lover. Perhaps, that is the reason I couldn’t see what you were doing to me. My love for you eclipsed my sense of logic and reasoning. I wanted to settle because I saw potential in you. But now I realize, I settled for something that was never meant to happen to me. I brought you on myself.
I have spent hours, day and night, thinking about how stupid I had been. Slowly, I realized what I had done. I had poured my heart and soul in our relationship, and that is not my fault. I gave you everything that I had and tried to give you everything that you wanted. Yet, despite my best efforts and attempts to make you feel loved, you never found that adequate. Who can I blame for the greed? Was it my greed to feel loved or was it your greed to conquer more? Which one of us is to take the blame?
You had come in my life and turned it upside down. Initially, for the best and now I realize it was the cushion to make me take the blow. I cannot imagine how broken I would have been if you had been my knight in shining armour. I feel lucky to have found you in a time when I was strong. To think of you as a loyal partner and a support system would be a shame if I knew that you would chase after a better girl.
There are better ways in which this could have ended. You could have told me that I was not what you were looking for and I would have stepped back no matter how much it would have hurt me. Yet, you chose to cheat on me, waited for me to find out and let me break into a million pieces. I cannot fathom how you can justify this. You didn't just betray me, you shattered me. I am left with no faith on love, let alone bestow my faith on men. I am pretty sure not all men would do what you did to me, but most men at least fantasize about other women. And I have a few not-so-nice things to say to them.
If you want meaningless sex, choose tinder, meet someone, hook up and repeat. If you want unconditional love, be prepared to give your everything to your relationship. If that scares you, stay the hell away from any sort of relationship. Don't choose one girl for love and a different girl for hooking up. Even if you do, keep your game fair and don't break anyone's heart.
I hope the girl you chose instead of me doesn't love you the way I did. I don't know her, but for her well-being, I really hope she can see everything in black and white. However, if you do end up "loyal and committed" to her, I really hope you feel sorry for what you have done to me. Apart from this, I have nothing to say to a man who stole my hopes, left me stranded in the most inhuman way possible and kicked me hard by cheating on me. I wouldn't wish this sort of pain on anyone, not even on you. Right now this feels like hell, but I am working on making it better. In that transition, I don't expect you to help me, I expect you to stay the hell away from me.
Sincerely
The Girl Who Learnt Her Lesson
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